Scaredy Cat

I felt so inspired and 'ready' just last week to do this blog. But now I'm scared. What's up with that? I'm trying to figure out what the deal is.I think I'm just afraid to be perfectly frank. Just like everything else though in my life I probably need to just walk thru the fear.

At the present, I'm in the middle of a divorce and custody battle. The ex has primarily had the babes the last year as I secured a job and a crib. I told him that I wouldn't try to take his babes from him.

To backtrack a little, another reason I felt comfortable leaving my babes while going to Alaska for a month was/is because the ex's family is huge, loving and stable. His 2 sisters are stay-at-home homeschooling moms with 4 babes each of their own. Not that I was trying to leave my responsibility with them but I knew they would support and provide help where needed. His mother is a pastors wife and doesn't necessarily have a job but instead helps folks where needed. 

I knew my kids were in safe hands.

Positives

August 2009 at 224lbs I started to exercise. I made a committment. I eliminated junk and sweets and Oh so yummy foods from my diet. I substituted salads, steamed chix breasts and water. Exercised EVERY day for atleast 1 hour.

January 2010 weighed in at 170lbs. September 2010 at 160lbs completed a goal I had since I was 19, to complete a triathlon. I finished!!

January 2011, I have 2 more triathlons planned this year, a 200 mile bike ride and a couple of other races in mind for 2011. Down a few more pounds currently, 10-13 to go-we'll see how I feel when I get there. It can be done!

2010 can kiss my ass I'm ready to move on but damn did I learn a lot and damn did I do a lot!

I'm proud of myself.