Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Downfall of Comparisons

Im so tired. I can't shake it. I look at my body and think, "Girl get with it!" My thighs and ass are not where I want them to be and my momma belly is there. I lost 70lbs in the last 2 years, I know this. So daily I try to talk to myself and argue with myself when those thoughts of self deprecation set in. I've worked hard and continue, but I need to rest. My head is screaming "CHILL BETH!"...just relax, take it easy. But my fears set in! Thoughts of losing my fitness that Ive worked so hard for. Thoughts of gaining weight set in. Thoughts of never feeling good enough or looking good enough set it. Again I talk to myself.

Talking to myself:
Beth you are lovely. You have worked hard. Relax. You don't have to workout an hour every single day to feel worth something. You are worthy. Stop working so hard. You are still learning and growing and moving forward. You have wonderful friends and your children are beautiful and healthy and love you. Rest, relax...your day job is challenging enough. Just enjoy your body that you worked hard for and take it easy for a little while. You can gain back your fitness...slow down and breathe girl, slow down and breathe. Its okay.

I love myself. I truly do. Sorting thru the BS in my head brings me back to that realization. Now moving forward until the next time I need to talk to myself and bring me back to the real.